The Song That Almost Didn’t Happen

There are songs you write because you want to — and then there are songs you write because you have to.

“Still Not Breathing” is one of the latter.
I wrote it in pieces, in whispers, in silence — over weeks when I could barely form words out loud. This song came from the slow, aching realization that I had spent years in a marriage where I wasn’t truly alive.

On the outside, everything looked fine.
On the inside, I was fading.

This is the story behind the song — and how it helped me find my way back to myself.